Practical Atheism

I struggle with "practical Atheism."

In short, many times I find myself acting as if there is no God. I confess with my mouth that there is a God. But many times my lifestyle says other wise. The other day I was reading in my bible and I reaized that I had been neglecting my life-giving connection with God. When I do that, I tend to try and face problems and challenges in my strength.

" How can I solve it?" I often think. Instead of trusting in God, I often Trust in myself.

Time and time again, I find myself reverting back to this bad habit. Someone has said, " God doesn't want to teach us a thousand lessons in one way; He wants to teach us one lesson in a thousand ways."

The one lesson he teaches me is that He is God and I am not. I can choose to go it alone. I can choose to face my situaitons and challenges alone. Or I can choose to face them with Him.

Lord, forgive me for forgetting you do easily. I need you. I am poor in spirit. I can not be the dad you want me to be alone. I can not be the husand you want me to be alone. I can not be the pastor you want me to be alone. But in your strength I can do all things.